Entry: "just a slave..or is I ?"
Thats what I am when it all get stripped away to the bare facts. Not a slave as in yes suh master suh slave but a slave as in to my art...or rather my art has me by the ouchers. I can't control this fire within me, this force that drives me to do art as if I might miss something if I don't. I've always been that way, even when I was younger I drew and painted like I breathed and ate. Have you ever wondered to yourself what the heck are you here for? I mean, whether you believe it or not, everyone on earth has a purpose in life, a reason for being who they are, who they were born to be...Most of us wander through life following paths that were basically decided for us early on by the whims or desires of our parents, or even by unplanned life circumstances. Nothing wrong with that at all, in fact most of the time it's a pretty nice fit, we accept the cards life deals us and make the most of it without a second thought. A lot of time, however, we end up in jobs or careers that are far removed from what we "prepared" for in college or high school. I love my day job, but I know in my heart that I was born to be an artist, not necessarily the greatest artist, but an artist all the same. I used to wonder when I was growing up what the heck I was going to do with myself, what career path I would take, since the boy didn't do that college thing...and at that time I had no clue that art was my vibe, my flow. Now I have no doubt at all that art is my calling. This is what I strive for, to be able to do one day...resign from my job and do art, for both self-satisfaction and for profit. I have no delusions about getting rich off of art, after all artists are a dime a dozen, but to do art for the joy of it is enough for me anyway (of course a brotha wants to get paid though)...So I have to admit that in that sense I am a slave to my art. I obey the call when the flow comes over me because I have to. Actually, that's all right with me...this is what makes me..me.
What do you think your calling in life is..or do you even feel you have a calling yet? Who are you supposed to be? Or are you content with just dealing with whatever comes down the pike for you in life, making the best out of whatever you're dealt? (which by the way is perfectly honorable and respectable)
7 brothers and sisters helped me to understand.
on Thursday, July 29th, 2004 @ 01:49 PM EST
as always greggy,i am amazed at your blog. those pics are beautiful. i'm jealous. u're so talented.
i just wanted 2 let u know i was back and u can view my pics
Hey Buddy!! Long time no see or hear! The both of you looked supreme, congrats on the lovely wedding, here's wishing your family a lifetime of JOY (pun intended) and happiness! Awww, don't be jealous of my pics, all the artwork I display here is dedicated to my true friends!! I hope you have a fun and fulfilling weekend!...greggy
on Thursday, July 29th, 2004 @ 01:57 AM EST
When you sense emptiness what you are really feeling is the ability to create. It is not a lack or an absence, but an opportunity.
When nothing is there, everything is possible. Take that opportunity, and make it into something great.
A little special thought from Ralph Marston(The Daily Motivator)
on Wednesday, July 28th, 2004 @ 12:09 PM EST
Your question about my calling in life reminds me of this favorite quote by Ralph W. Emerson:
To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.
The value that we derive from life comes from the journey. A journey well traveled will include trials, tribulations, errors, beauty,love and opportunity. It is in that process that we very often will catch glimpses of our true calling. But collectively, I think one's true calling can be multi-dimensional, whereas, if you don't fullfill your dream in one way, you may have already done so in another aspect of your life using the same talents.
You know that is a serious quote that covers how to truly succeed in life versus the slash and burn mentality we call success. Perhaps it is true that a persons calling could be multi-dimensional, interesting thought. Which would explain why some folk are so amazingly happy doing whatever they do it seems, quietly succeeding one day at a time, being extremely good at everything they do...I think success is defined by so many different and personal variables, I guess everyone will truly know when they find that personal "groove", that niche...in their own time...greggy
on Wednesday, July 28th, 2004 @ 12:30 AM EST
I love to mix paint colours but I don't like to have to form a picture. I like to write poetry because I like the way the words create images in my head. I like looking at art because it conveys a mood to me and I feel the connection to the greater spirit and oneness that we are all linked to here on Earth. There is peace in the art world because the eyes of artists see deeper than what is on the surface and depict the veins and blood flow of our lives. Artists pick up the hues and colour distributions that lurk in the shadows and bring a light to the beauty that exists in everyday, every minute, every breath.
Catch today and be happy, Meadow
Hi Meadow!Thats the good thing about art....you don't have to follow rules, you don't have to form a picture if you don't want to! Just pushing paint around on a palette sometimes will spark something in my brain and before you know it..BOOM! another creative storm! Even writers of poetry share this same inner connection to the unseen, I think we just "describe" it using different medias...greggy
on Tuesday, July 27th, 2004 @ 08:33 AM EST
What would I be with out my art. Iíve been doing it for so long I know of nothing outside of my family that gives me more pleasure. I loose myself in it. Drink it sleep with it on my mind but I never praise my work there are so many wonderful artist out there like you and frank and even most of the people I work with. Even though Iíve been doing this since I was a child and have gone to school for it, I learn from everyone, Especially those that have not been formally trained. They keep me fresh and my mind free of all the traditional methods learned in school. I let creating art strip away any pain felt from outside sources. My art distracts me from the mundane rituals of life. Iím fortunate enough to do what I love for me and for work. Itís wonderful getting paid to do what I love and what comes so naturally to me. Am I doing what Iím here for I guess for right now I feel I am, but who knows what the lord has in store for me down the road art may not be my only purpose in his eyes. Great post Greggy Have great fun this week.
Yeah Nina in a nutshell you summed up pretty much what I was relating. Art is so much a part of our lives its woven into my very being. Although I could be considered untrained since I lack any formal training in the arts, this stuff runs through my veins for sure. Kinda reminds me of that moobie "Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind", remember that? That guy and lady were driven by forces beyond their control to pursue and discover what was driving them....the same with our art, forces beyond our control drive us, steadily keeping us on the verge of that next one, that masterpiece. I also use my art to escape the craziness of this environment or as you mentioned, "the pain from outside sources" just like you do. And like you I also absorb a little bit of all my creative friends vibes and learn from them also. My friends give me so much breath, so much of a shared creative vibe, yes without them I would be less of an artist than I am today. I do know that I do not take this gift for granted so to me my creating art is like giving back love through art. Enjoy the rest of your birthday week dear. Be good, be safe, and...be stepping kinda close to the big numbers now aintcha???...*berfday hugzzzz to you all week*...greggy
on Monday, July 26th, 2004 @ 09:07 PM EST
I'm here, just frustrated. This weekend I had to delete about 300 spam porn comments from my blog. It was disheartening and made me want to just delete everything. Instead I took the hour to delete all those links plus most of my archives. So Cheryl's just a little ticked and sad.
To comment on your blog, I'd say that i'm no where near where I want to be, as far as career and happiness. I don't know what my calling in life is or was, but I have been blessed with a wonderful daughter that i've raised to the best of my abilities. I'm proud of her and myself for never letting her down. Maybe that was my calling in life. If so, i've done well.
Like you, I want to be creative, but I get weighted down with trying to learn all of the software I have. There isn't much I don't have, and I want to master it all. I think I could do well if my career were in order so that I could relax and take the time to enjoy learning this stuff. Right now, i'm so stressed that i'm not really having fun with my life. I pray on it, so I know it will improve in time.
Am I a slave? Yes. I live and breathe art and the pc.
I may not be an artist Greggy or a Frank, but i'm creative and talented in many things which is where the problem lies. I can't focus enough to create a real work of art, whether it be a flash design or web layout, or what have you; because my mind is so cluttered and scattered. You and Frank have the kind of artistic talent that transcends beyond the computer. I really admire that and wish I could do more than draw a stick person. Everyone else in my family can draw but me. No fair!
Aww Cheryl, trust me I feel you on the spam porn evilness that we fight daily. Why they can't make it illegal to flood us with that garbage I dunno!!! Well just like in real life, don't let the cyber-terrorists win, I know they annoying, but don't let them derail your joy. Whether or not your calling is to be an artist, a designer, a cook, a filmaker, or whatever doesn't matter as long as you are being the best that you are as you. Just like you say you admire my artistic talent, there are many talents and gifts that all my friends (including you) have that I admire far more than what I do naturally. Your well of creativity and positivity alone is a talent like none I have ever seen, so we all have our own unique gifts and talents that makes us who we are. I'm flattered that you think highly enough of my art to comment as such, but believe me your site has always inspired me since I've been on the net way back when we all did that BP thing...You don't need to draw like Greggy or Frank or anyone else to claim artistic fame or validation either. I wish I had half the creativity and software (LOL) that you possess! Just step back and chill your brain cells for a moment, then step on back in...crack a few heads if you have to....greggy
on Monday, July 26th, 2004 @ 09:36 AM EST
As a fellow artist my brother, you know I'm feeling your words as if I'd written them myself. I was onced asked (I believe I have that question on my official website) what would I be doing if I wasn't an artist. The question itself caused me great pain. To live a life that is without art to me would rob me of the 1 true and purest quality that makes Frank Alexis, Jr. what he is. A fine and polished artist throughout and within. Just end my existence now. I could not imagine a life without my art. In essence, I truly would not have one at all. I'm a slave as well my brother. In that, we are definitely 2 peas in a pod! Great, great post!!! Be cool brother Greggy.
Thanks Frank, all of us true artists ride the same wave, the same vibe...it's our thread of commonality indeed. Peace...greggy