Entry: "Forever my love..."
Sooner or later you all had to know I was going to go there...
I don't want to make anyone feel sad or morbid, and understand I am smiling as I write this, but my spirit has been urging me to write this...Although I know that Cheryl (my precious wife who God recently called home in late July) can not physically read this, perhaps her spirit will know what I am trying to articulate now...you see, because of my hospitalization and medical issues after the accident, I never had a chance to say good-bye to her in person. Please bear with me and allow me to reach out to her just one more time...and also, please don't cry, but rejoice as I do for her spirit, for she is at peace now in Heaven. (smile)
"Baby, I never got the chance to personally say good-bye or "I love You" at least one more time before you were called home to Heaven and during your Homegoing Service. Sure we had made sure to always kiss and say I love you every morning, night and throughout the day and mean it from the heart, but the sudden events of that day took away from both of us our ability to kiss just one more time, for both of us to look deep into each others eyes and say ďI Love You, Poo!" ...just one more time. Plus, I wanted so badly to even be able to come to your Homegoing service but my injuries were such that prevented me from leaving the hospital until several days afterwards. I am so very grateful that our loved ones and friends made sure you were remembered for the loving heart you had and gave so effortlessly. I can honestly say that it was you who taught me how to love unconditionally and I mean an honest and true love deep from the heart. I can so clearly remember our early years...(smile). When we were younger and just starting out, (I was 26, you were 23) we loved each other with a passion that often morphed into the usual early relationship arguments and disagreements that young couples usually have. But you showed me how to take those moments and build upon them, to learn from our disagreements and use the lessons learned for the next time. Of course I was clueless as to this thing called love back then, all I knew was that when I first started being with you, it made me feel all funny whenever I was around you, and I ended up trying to act extra polite and extra intelligent whenever you were around...(smile) When I was younger I think I was afraid to admit to being in love, perhaps that was the way I was brought up, to appear to be tough, unemotional...perhaps. Over the many years that we were together it was you who showed me how to open up your heart and give it unconditionally to the one you loved. Sure I tried to act like I knew, but it was you who showed me how to do it by the way you did it yourself...to me. I am so thankful that we both took the time to always say, "I'm sorry" and really mean it after either one of us or sometimes the both of us took a little "trip around the block" (giggling). Over the years though, we took this thing we had and grew it into something we both trusted was going to last forever, our love...and it will Baby. You loved me unconditionally, through our good times and our bad times, through our disagreements and our tribulations, just as I hope I have been able to do for you. Even when I lost my mind on occasion and acted the fool, you were always there for us, showing me the way...You agreed with me when you thought I was right and in no uncertain tone you also let me know when you thought I had lost my mind...(smile). You made me feel special and loved, important and intelligent, wanted and needed. Because of you baby, because of your patience and unconditional love for me, I grew into the man I am today. I will never ever stop loving you Poo.... Never. You will always be a part of me, because you taught me about how to love someone forever. I will always love you Poo, Always.... But even now I am working so that we will see each other again in His time. (big smile) Good-bye sweetheart, I will always love you unconditionally and forevermore. Greg"
19 brothers and sisters helped me to understand.
on Monday, December 19th, 2005 @ 07:05 PM EST
That is beautiful, Greg. *hugs* I'm glad you take comfort in joining her again.
on Monday, December 12th, 2005 @ 12:26 PM EST
happy, happy to hear of your blessings mr. g! i cannot think of anyone more worthy
on Monday, October 10th, 2005 @ 08:16 AM EST
I had no idea so much was going on in your life. Which means I don't check in as much as I used to and for that I apologize. Strength comes from He most high, so look to Him on your hardest days. Much love. This was beautiful. I'll stop by more often, even if you are on a hiatus currently.
on Saturday, October 8th, 2005 @ 04:35 PM EST
Hey Greggy just checking in on you...
on Saturday, September 17th, 2005 @ 10:32 PM EST
Brotha Buck said
Greg, wow, that was beautiful. You have such a kind spirit.Im sure, she knew. Reminds me I need to work on some things because, you never know. I have much to learn from you. Thanks. God bless.
on Friday, September 16th, 2005 @ 04:56 PM EST
How touching. This reminds me of when my precious mom left us in a truck/trailor accident 10 years ago. I had not been able to say goodbye or get a last hug either. However, I know that I will see her again and I must get myself right with the LORD in order to do that and then I will get my last hug. I used to write letters to her too. You sound like a wonderful man. Did you draw the dove above here? That is my favorite bird. Hang in there
on Friday, September 16th, 2005 @ 01:21 AM EST
just checking in on you,
I know I owe you an email..
soon I will have time..
I know it..
on Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 @ 11:40 PM EST
This is so beautiful.God truly blessed both of you. Thank you for sharing this with us, our hearts are all the better for it.
on Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 @ 07:12 PM EST
Simply beautiful. You asked us not to cry. I wonder if Cheryl listened and did the same. ;-)
on Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 @ 03:44 PM EST
honey i sent an email i hope you will read it soon . i just wanna let you know that i love you so much and you're in my heart. that letter is beautiful and i KNOW that she hears you!!!!
on Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 @ 01:24 PM EST
Greggy, this is heavenly! *sniffle*
on Monday, September 12th, 2005 @ 04:12 PM EST
I'm speechless. You were blessed to have each other.
on Monday, September 12th, 2005 @ 10:12 AM EST
I sure do miss her Greg, but your strength and courage to continue on amazes me. May I have the strength to press on in the midst of adversity for I know I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me! I never knew your courage until now... You truly are a witness to others. I pray that people don't wait to tell their loved ones how much they really do love them. God bless you always.
on Monday, September 12th, 2005 @ 01:12 AM EST
That was a lovely rememberance of your wife...she will forever echo in your heart. Thank you for sharing your memories and allowing us to know a bit of your journey together.
on Sunday, September 11th, 2005 @ 09:24 PM EST
That was a beautiful letter and I know you will always keep Cheryl in your heart and she will keep you in her heart in heaven. I didn't get to leave any comments on the past entries but I sent you something in the mail and I hope you get it soon.
on Sunday, September 11th, 2005 @ 05:59 PM EST
Amazing brother. I suspected that you had reached out to her in your own way already. But to see your thoughts, your love and heartfelt feelings in words merely underscores the true love you had for Cheryl.
You are her and she is you. And being one, she knows your thoughts even before you write them. What a beautiful display of your feelings for her. Thank you for taking us inside your heart. But from you man, I wouldn't expect anything less. Nice job Greg. Be well man.
on Sunday, September 11th, 2005 @ 05:20 PM EST
Sherri Berry said
Aw G! This writing is so beautiful! I'm rejoicing rightnow in my Spirit for you because you needed to do this for your healing process. To God be the Glory! You are coming through this with God right by your side (and of course, all of those who have your back) BIG SMILES, luv and prayers to ya always!
on Sunday, September 11th, 2005 @ 03:30 PM EST
All any of us can wish, is that we are loved so deeply and sincerely by someone as you clearly loved and will eternally love your wife. I know you know she hears every ounce of what you feel in every moment that passes. She is with you now even closer than she was before. God Bless Greg.
on Saturday, September 10th, 2005 @ 04:30 PM EST
Greg, Cheryl knew how much you loved her. Everyone knew. Just remember how much she was loved by our family too! I miss her too. but she is in a better place with our Lord and Saviour Hang tough brother for I get strength from you also. love you always and forever your sis Donna